EARS!

For some reason, Ayden and I have horrible problems with our ears. I had 8-10 ear infections yearly until I reached 21. At 21, I had surgery on my ear that has left me partially deaf in my left ear. Thankfully I am able to hear well and don't seem to have problems hearing. I do say "huh" a lot, but the day someone tells me how annoying it is, that'll be the day I go get a hearing aid!

Ayden has a ton of ear infections as well and is on his second, stronger round of antibiotics. He'll be on medicine for half a month so I hope this time it gets cleared upI'. I hope he doesn't have to go through what I went through when I was young and hope it just vanishes. Can you imagine an ear infection for 20 days!? It just makes me sick!

Owen also has his first ear infections that he's fighting and is doing a great job at it. He woke up once last night so here's to a night of hopefully sleeping through the night. Maybe he won't have as many as I had when I was young. Todd never gets sick so I hope that is in Owen's genes.

I'm thankful for health insurance, sweet doctors and nurse practitioners and for medicine to help heal the boys. I have a lot to be thankful for and am glad we're on the road to recovery.

Hi. I'm Angela and I have a problem!

You know how you can go to church and it's like the pastor is talking directly to you? I think God does that to me in words of people around me. In the past 3 weeks, 3 people have talked about friendship and not knowing how to speak to strangers or how to approach someone in conversation.

Something similar happened to me with tanning in a tanning bed.. and I quit going, but that's besides the point.

My point is that I have a problem. I have family and very very few friends. I would love to have a friend or two that have kids and understand me, and what I'm going through.. not that I'm going through anything right now, but.. I don't know, just to have a friend. Someone who's there to encourage me and just be my friend! haha

I have people in my life that are nice to me but I can truly say I have maybe 4 friends. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing but that's what I have. I know that these 4 people would be there for me in a hot-minute if I needed them, so what am I complaining about?

How do you talk to people? How do you meet people that aren't crazy, or weird, or swingers (seriously) or their kids aren't bad?? I think my main 'problem' with meeting people is they don't discipline their kids and I don't want to hang out with them if the kids are bad. I can not handle parents with bad kids because I think it shows a lack of responsibility on the parent's part. Bad kids = lazy parents.

BLAH! :)

I guess sometimes I feel like I don't have a personality, that I'm just a mom and a wife and that's all I have to offer. My kids are awesome and loved but that shouldn't define who I am...

What we're up to..

We're finally moving back home. Our renters are moving out in August!! We're so excited to get back home to our family and the handful of friends we have left. It's funny, you invite people to weddings and baby showers and people don't RSVP or show up when they say they'll come.. Sometimes those are the people you don't want in your life anymore. Anyway. We have our house for sale still and hope that it sells quickly! Once it sells, we'll just have a mortgage payment in FL and that will be all we owe. It's amazing how not worrying about payments can revive your life. Now we have to find a good church to get into. Something that won't scare Todd off! Although, I'm not all about speaking in tongues in the middle of service.. that really gets me upset. We've got a lot on our minds when we move home and hope that it goes smoothly. The kids and I are moving back in June so a 2-day trip will be interesting to say the least. I'm sure we'll be fine. So, we're staying with my mom until August 1 and then we've rented a condo on Perdido Beach for the month of August and I cannot wait!

So, with my 'handful of friends' .. I'm hoping I can find some good women to hang out with. I sometimes think how sad and lonely I am not having anyone to talk to but I have to realize that a part of that problem is .. well.. me. I am afraid to socialize because I'm afraid I'll get hurt or that people won't like me. I gotta get into some sort of mommy-and-me group or something!

Ugh.

The boys are good. Owen is 10.5 months old and is finally crawling! He has 8 teeth and is a handful but so much fun! Ayden is almost done with school and is on his 3rd year of baseball and is loving it. Batting from a pitching machine is much harder than underhand, but he's doing great regardless.

Todd is well and is working hard for us. I'm so thankful I'm able to stay at home with the kids. It's something I never thought I'd want to do, but it truly gives my heart joy and I feel like this is why I'm alive right now.

Just a few more weeks and we'll be home... CAN NOT WAIT!